THE BREATH EXPERIENCE
When you take a conscious breath, you may experience any
number of sensations.
- Immediate
relief
- Sleepiness
- Boredom
- A sense of being at
ease
- Muscular
relaxation
- A flood of
thoughts
- Nothing much
- Excitement and
energy
There is no way of knowing for sure what your breath
experience will be like because the interplay between the
dimensions of breath—metabolism, information, and
emotion—is infinitely complex. What you or I experience in
any given moment of breath awareness is actually a side
effect of what the body is doing as it balances its
energies, heals itself, assesses the environment, acts on
its instincts, and mobilizes to meet challenges from
without and within.
There are two major aspects to the practice of breath
awareness:
- The first is
learning how to pay
attention, which
itself has two parts: learning to ride the rhythms of
awareness, and discovering your favorite sensual
pathways.
- The second aspect, oddly
enough, is learning how to handle
relaxation. When you
relax, you come down off the stress response and you feel
the pain underneath—the pain of tensed muscles along with
fatigue. Your mind may be flooded with images of what
made you tense, and your body will feel the sensations of
tension once more before letting go.
The process is similar to the experience of sitting on your
foot and cutting off circulation. You don’t feel anything
at first, but when you restore circulation by standing up,
you feel the pins and needles. Almost every exercise in
this book has to do with restoring or increasing
circulation to the physical and emotional body, and you
will experience various kinds of pangs as you explore the conscious breath.
Rarely will you encounter anything as intense as what
happens when you sit on your foot. Mostly, they will be
relatively tiny sensations, but be accepting of them
because this is how relaxation happens.
I ♥ Stress
Personally, I love the stress response, with its tingling
surge of instant energy throughout the body. It saved our
ancestors many times, and I am sure it has saved my life at
least a few times. But, like a powerful motor, you don’t
want to rev your nervous system needlessly.
Whether you are dealing with your kids or competing in the
Olympics, having just the right
amount of energy is
critical. In the martial arts, sports, singing, or speech
making, the ability to relax in action is highly valued
because it helps you perform at your best. Breath awareness
teaches you how to modulate your stress response directly
so that you can control your levels of excitement and
relaxation in any situation.
Elegance in Action
In most life situations, a tiny fraction of the stress
response is what is most useful – just a slight boost,
maybe 1% or 5% of being scared. Meditation is one of the
main times, besides dreaming, that your body can adjust its
meters and dials and train itself to have only appropriate
stress, exactly when needed and only to the extent that it
is needed. You may have heard the expression, Nature loves
elegance, or nature is economical. It's true. Your body, as
a part of nature, loves elegance in effort, to use energy
well.
The body spends a lot of time during meditation
debriefing the alarm response – making little
movies about the stuff you got scared or stressed about,
examining the exact nerves and glands that were
triggered, replaying the whole scenario so that it is
more efficient and successful. Although this process
feels noisy and painful, if you allow this debriefing,
you will have a clearer head next time you are in a
stressful situation, and you will tend to function
better.
Perceiving Relaxation
The more your senses evolve, the more you will notice how
each moment is slightly different from any other. Mostly,
you will experience what relaxation feels like. These
sensations of winding down do not mean that you have failed
in breath awareness. Rather, when you are at ease, your
body will systematically review every time you have been
ill at ease, to fine-tune its responsiveness. The different
parts of your body will talk to one another. This is what
human nervous systems do; it is an adaptive trait, part of
our survival mechanism. It speaks to the success of your
breath experience if the noise of the different parts of
your body and brain talking to one another sounds like a
cocktail party.
Open Your Senses
Arrange to sit somewhere comfortable where you won’t be
disturbed for a while. Sit upright in a chair with your
back supported and your feet on the ground.
Sit for 1 minute with your eyes open and get used to just
being there.
Notice that you are breathing, and open your senses to
breath.
Find some aspect of breathing that is pleasant to you right
now—
the touch of air in your nostrils, down your throat, into
your chest and belly.
The rhythmic in-and-out of the breath, the massage of it,
the quiet sounds.
Focus on the sensation you like most and keep returning to
this pleasure.
Your mind
will always wander; the key is to be gentle in
returning
to the breath. In an easy and
casual manner, keep bringing your attention back to the
sensual experience of breathing.
When thoughts come, you will often become totally lost in
them and forget that you are breathing. When you return
from the thoughts, you will have a choice of what to pay
attention to and again you can enjoy the breath.
You can practice this exercise for 1 minute, 3 minutes, 5
minutes, or even 20 minutes